so kiss me and smile for me

been having a lot of mixed emotions lately.. unfortunately, all are negative. perhaps it's the uneasiness that i'm about to leave a chapter behind and start another new chapter again. perhaps it's the insecurity of wad the next chapter might bring.

i regretted for not taking poly more seriously. though i didn't do too badly, but it seems like poly has just been a dream to me. to say the truth, i wasn't really happy/clear about wad am i doing for the past 3 years. everything seems like being on automation mode. i'm just supposed to go to sch at certain periods of time, attend lessons, go home.. perhaps everything, right from the start, for every wrong reasons why i end up in NYP.. it's fated. but it's not too bad, since i will be graduating soon with a useful certificate nevertheless.

i've always hate myself for that "once-i-take-a-disliking-at-you,-wadever-you-do-will-be-condemned-by-me" attitude. i dunno.. i've alrd tried to change.. but the mentality is still there.

ok.. i dunno wad am i writing about anymore..

so long, goodbye.

JAC.jac

- 11:12 PM