so kiss me and smile for me

Lesson learnt: NEVER, seriously NEVER trust someone enough to tell them personal stuff.

& right.. juz when i thought everything is going well... finally, manager juz gave me a big scolding. i dun even know shld i call him my manager now - since i'm no longer under him, yet he still gives me work to do and dictate who i am in the office. yeah. talk abt irony.

i seriously do not know what have i done to trigger his anger. maybe i do.. but i dun understand why is he being so furious about it. the stuff that he juz said less than 30 mins ago.. is... the most insulting stuff i've ever heard from him.

i feel that his expectations of me are climbing higher and higher as the days pass. and so, once i fail slightly.. he'll kick up a big fuss out of it. but why his sudden anger.. i seriously do not know. even those i tell it to also do not know. i mean i'm used to him being angry all the time.. but it's the 1st time seeing him so angry.

well.. and he's not the only one who's angry. cos when he's angry.. only whatever he says is right. the rest of you or rather me can shut up. cos no matter what, he sure wins. whatever i say.. even if i feel injustified, are merely excuses for myself.

i do not know where he hears those stuff from. perhaps it's my new manager. i'm merely telling her my interest does not lies in sales, which is the truth and i do not understand why he muz keep forcing me to do cold, hard selling. BUT, i've never said no to him. i let him guide me. and alright.. i'm only telling her cos she'll be leading me.. at least in the near future.. so i thought it'd be right to tell ur manager where ur interest lies in. she muz have reflected it to him. absolutely not her fault. i juz have to be careful wad i say to people abt myself in the future. though it may be harmless.. but it makes a difference.

when i told the 2 people that i tell to how he scolded me.. they find him really ridiculous this time. but he did add this sentence:

"if you think i can't see your efforts, why would i be spending time telling you off and making myself pissed? if ever the day you find that i can't be bothered with you anymore.. then good luck.. it means that S**** (his name) don't care about you anymore."

shld i take consolation in that? makes you think. how a harmless sentence can trigger someone off BIG TIME.

JAC.jac

- 12:30 AM