so kiss me and smile for me

life has really been a roller-coaster ride for me these days.. sometimes i'll go up really, really high but the next moment.. i'll zoom back down to earth.

everybody has been really claiming that i'm more than juz amazing.. what with that manager - known as Emperor Lee now, is being so mean to me. i find myself amazed too. i really wonder why or HOW did i manage to stay this long.. maybe i'm looking for greater challenges in my life la.. you know.. push myself to the limits kind of thing.. hahaha

i manage to get his fine wines list correct today and did my homework on the product list for my part. so he went past my desk and gave me a chocolate. at that moment, i really feel like i'm his pet. when done well, got reward.. when i make a mistake, got scolded/lectured by him. sigh.

& my manager was telling me today. she says she noticed that Emperor Lee always like to target me. and i began to realise too. like every nitty gritty thing he also muz come to me. he got himself a new assistant yet he still wants me to do his stuff. this afternoon, he came all the way across the room and ask me to find 1 single wine info for him when his assistant is like seated next to him. question mark??! & he keeps calling me on my extension.. keep on Jac.. can u pls come, Jac, Jac, Jac... sigh.

they say i'm an easy target. but that's not true. i showed my temper to him before.. i talked back to him all the time on msn. i even ask him to please learn how to respect people. so why?

& i get feedbacks from people saying i'm going crazy working with him. i said it has only been a month. and they replied saying a month is very long alrd.. by right.. 2 weeks i shld quit alrd.. haha

whatever it is, let's see tomorrow where the ride will take me. maybe when one day i can't stand his "treatment" towards me.. 1 moment so damn nice to me.. the next nagging like no tomorrow.. i'll really throw it back in his face. believe me. i have the capability to do it.. just if i want it or not.

JAC.jac

- 8:43 PM