so kiss me and smile for me

i am harbouring a secret plan. i'm still in the phase of deciding if it's worth carrying out. it's a good plan. but if i decides to stick with this plan, i'll be pulled further and further apart from what i really love to do.

or perhaps. i should follow my heart; to do what i think i will love doing.

so which is more feasible? doing something for the sake of your career and not really enjoy doing it OR follow your heart and be poor at the end of the day? but without money, can we really choose to follow our heart's desire and do whatever we want?

on another note, i shall dedicate this part of the blog entry to HELLO KITTY. he bought me a top (HOT PINK) and a leather namecard holder from his aussie rendezvous trip. well this is the THIRD time he bought something from overseas which i totally can't put it to use.

indonesia trip - kuei lapis. well i love eating that. but if you know what i mean, the packaging is like those cold storage box type where the shelf life is like a year. i dunno. it gives me the feeling that loads of preservatives must be added to it and hence, with the mental image that i'll die after eating that, i didn't touch that cake. which was a pity because he bought me one whole box while the rest of the office has to share a box.

HK trip - well he bought loads of tau sa pia which i didnt't eat because i wasn't at my desk when it was being passed around. but no harm anyway cos feedbacks are that it isn't nice at all. he personally bought me a mickey mouse key chain - the size of a mini-disc, in full metal which is like so heavy. i mean the keys are heavy enough, but with the added weight of the bulky key chain... sigh. to think i feel so happy when he ask me if i like disney stuff and get laughed at for being a kid when i say i do. i thought he was going to buy me a soft toy. LOL.

Aussie Trip - The top is nice. seriously. (perhaps it's chosen by his "partner") but HOT PINK? sorry. i don't wear pink. (i got complains from gilly that hers is black with flowers on the sleeve. LOLOLOL.) the namecard holder is well.. okay.. but it feels very kiddish. i can't imagine drawing that out in front of an all impt client and flash it in front of him. EZ-link holder? maybe.

ok la. at least he bought gifts everytime. but i mean, can you just for once!! buy something which i can use.. so that i'll feel happy? haiya.. sigh.

tomorrow gots another meeting with him again. must sit in his full speed dashing car with the dangling seat belt (just cause he says it won't crumple shirts then). and always give me tests/quizzes on the journey.. make me feel that my brain is really so damn slow compared to his... and he'll keep prompting and lead me to answer it correctly. seriously. just let me rest for the journey la!

Bless.

JAC.jac

- 10:37 PM