so kiss me and smile for me

& i dunno wad calls for an entry today. just feel like writing something la.. since i have no more muse to continue writing fictional stuff.

ok updates - everything is finally smoothed out; though the doc says i have to return for another scan 6 months later which is on boxing day. :( boo. but thank God that i am fine. really. my heart can finally be set at ease. work is fine too, except my itchy hands and prolly my uncontented heart sets me out to send resumes every now and then still.

and finally. i rest my case on my short-lived unrequited love (well not really unrequited since wen says i can't use that word cos i didn't confess.) well, that's just so me. my interest is forever flickering. so far... there's only been one time where my interest was kept. shld the second time comes, i'll feel fear instead. i dunno why. prolly the commitment phobia thingy again. oh wells. i also dunno why am i like that. the desperado song suits me very well. fine things have been laid upon my table, but i only want the ones that i can't have. tsk tsk.

on another totally random note, i feel like doing something crazy again. i wanna go learn horseback riding! well to maintain the membership is very very expensive i would say... but the initial lessons are still affordable... shld i??? shld i??? i've been wanting to for like eons of years. since i was 11... shld i???

but then again, i'm going off to thailand and hk for holidays soon leh.. so shld i???

life's dilemmas.

JAC.jac

- 11:59 PM