so kiss me and smile for me

what a long, long day for me... one that is very down as well. i'm over-loaded with emotions today - truly an emotional rollercoaster ride for me. all in one day.

where should i begin? in this world of lies, who can you truly believe in or in fact, what can you believe in? i hate the complicated adult world. now, i can really start to see, that my world is still very safe and guarded, a whole world of betrayal, mistrusts and other forms of drama are unfolding right in front of me every moment of the day.

when i heard about the deep, dark secret which most people wouldn't want others to know for the sake of pride, i felt disappointed. i mean i know what kind of a person that person alrd is. but to keep having reminders of them is definitely.. more than enough.

but to say the truth, if i truly want to ask myself about it. that person hasn't been all that bad to me at all. even when i show my temper at that person, that person didn't blame me all that much. that person stuck up for me and encouraged me even when it's my fault. so will that person feel disappointed when that person finds out that i totally lose all respect and trust for that person? after all, that person told me that i am the one that person trusted the most.

do you understand what am i saying?

i think i really need a nice long holiday soon... soonnnnnn.

JAC.jac

- 6:51 PM