so kiss me and smile for me

went through a series of emotions in the short time frame of the past 48hours. it's amazing really.

i guess after all these, my directions of what i really want will get clearer and clearer. though of cos, once in a while, there will be blunders and little accidents.

it's amazing really how hanging out with different people gives me different feelings. and with some, i am really happy and can truly laugh from my heart. these are the people i will truly treasure and hold dear in my life.

perhaps like i've said. i'm really just sore. that things aren't happening the way i wanted them to but instead in the opposite direction where hurt and sadness comes along.

i guess it's really my character after all - i couldn't put the blame on anybody else. but with each time, i get a clearer picture of where i am heading to. so until the day where i truly want to make the effort to overcome my phobia, i shall just enjoy wad is being lain upon my table; including all negative emotions that come along with it.

i can proudly says that with each day, i am getting stronger.. and i know that escaping is not the way to solve problems. i am still trying to figure out how am i going to walk the road ahead of me. all i need is a little more time and patience from everybody around me.

don't worry. i'll be fine. the cheerful me will return again tomorrow. (:

JAC.jac

- 12:49 AM