so kiss me and smile for me

trust is such a fragile thing.

i give my trust easily. i give it whole-heartedly. but once broken, even to the slightest matter, it will be damn hard for me to trust again.

every now and then.. i wish i wouldn't be so much of a "feeling" person. i wish my head would rule over my heart most of the time. cos i'm sick of being so emotional.. using my emotions to work. i shld be more practical than i alrd am.

work for money. work to climb up the corporate ladder instead of working for people i enjoy working with. working because i respect that person and want to work for him.

tired. damn tiring. i'm definitely NOT playing the political game. i'm not cut out to play and i won't play it.

i am no longer holding on to any hopes. i dun want to. when i hope, it only gets dashed. i shall live a life without hope and let things go as it is.. if there're anything good.. they'll be bonuses to me instead of a met expectation.

tired. damn tired to be so cheerful and positive all the time when there's nothing much to be positive really.

there's just only one person in this world i can trust with no worries, who i know i can rely on no matter wad. end of story.

JAC.jac

- 10:20 PM