so kiss me and smile for me

life is so full of uncertainties.

i think i shld learn to accept that there is no such thing as a perfect situation. how many times have i steered myself tremendously off that mindset. but a little bit of that perfectionist still remains in me.

i'm caught in the middle of my job and studies. the timeline between both sucks. it's either this or that and neither can give me an affirmation. everything is pending.

i'm still stuck in my own rut. i have no confidence of moving on. i'm threading on thin ice - yet, everybody around me urges me to move on. sometimes i feel like i can't see the road ahead of me.. and i might as well give up because of past experiences. i feel that if i can't give my best, i might as well don't do it.

but still, after past experiences, i know that it's now time to let go and talk myself out of the rut - or i'll be stuck in there forever. i should keep reminding myself that i'm very lucky already.

i shouldn't give up trying - after all, nobody ever said that it was easy, isn't it?

JAC.jac

- 11:45 AM