so kiss me and smile for me

too many things going on in my mind right now. yet, at the same time, it can all be pushed back..

it's probably myself getting stuck in my own cycle again.

it's probably the heat that is getting to me.

i think i need to go out - i miss the pineapple ice mountain i drank at East Coast's Hong Kong Cafe yesterday night.

i think i need to start looking for a job - something to do at least. yet, i dunno which school will i be accepted to. nothing is for sure yet.

i think i really have no time for many many things i feel like doing. i keep pushing these thoughts back and i really wonder, when will i get down to doing it.. and if i keep pushing it back and back, will i look back and regret that i didn't start doing them earlier?

i think we're growing up too fast. i'm not prepared for things to change so dramatically in such a short time.

we all have more and more commitments now. even if you're ready to slow down or even put ur hectic life on pause just to catch up, the people around you might not be on the same pace as you.

at least now, i still have a choice of going back to school where school holidays still exist. i can't imagine when i fully need to face the working world forever - when your annual leave consist of only 10 - 14 days.. how do we still get to really do the things we feel like doing???

can i still afford to lay back and stare at the ceiling during the mid-day? can i continue watching afternoon tvs and mid-days cartoons? how are these possible when there's only 10 days of leave??

but still, we can't stop time. it's passing by each day and u have to go along with the flow; like it or not.

i think i really need to get out of the house. but go where ah?

JAC.jac

- 7:19 PM