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Thursday, March 26, 2009

i think it's been such a long time since my last entry that i forgot what happened in between.

so i've been to taiwan, went for my medical check-up and got an average report, started full-time work while maintaining tuition and school work and it's killing me.. went for several visits to the dentist... and i forgot what else.

i'm feeling very vexed all of a sudden. like so many things suddenly surged and surfaced.. and i find that i do not have answers or solutions to them. i dunno how to handle them and i'm lost for nobody can give me an answer. i feel like escapping... but i always believe that escaping will cause a heavier consequence. someday, reality will catch up with you.. no matter how far and fast you're running away from it.

i always hate the people and teachers who come up with motivational speeches and quotes. like i know i'll emerge to be a better person. after going through this, nothing else will pull me down. which is not exactly true.. cos life is so unpredictable.. you dunno what other shit you can get. i hate motivational talks cos it does nothing to relieve the pain while we are actually going through that event. just like when someone tells you dun worry.. you just practice and practice and you'll pass that math exam (omg.. i heard it countless times).. but it does nothing to make me happier while i was practising those sums. perhaps i'm cynical.. i dunno.

and i need to quit my job soon or my life will be taken soon. i really dun understand.. this course is meant to be for professionals who are of course dealing with a full time job.. so if they can do it, why can't i? or what? i dunno.. but i really feel very exhausted and the desire of sleeping in late, watching afternoon tv and your life is just about homeworks and projects is very very tempting indeed. i want to go back to that kind of life!!

and i almost forgot that tomorrow is a friday - which means it's still a working day and i have to wake up early which means i have to sleep early now! omg


JAC.jac

- 11:49 PM